eeee, i didnt do well for yuan dian.
haix.
yah i doesnt seems so but i seriously am very disappointed with myself.
like WTH.
i wanted to do well, but last min, forget all my lines.
like i always am, i forget, blank out last min.
when everybody have so much confident in me, den i screw things up.
felt very shitty.
let everyone down.
wth. wad the bloody hell was i thinking and doing.
shit.

you know what felt even more shitty?
when you actually are so familiar with something but you just do it so badly.
and not forgetting to regret it only after you screw it up.
what's the bloody use.NO USE.
hate mysef. =.=
felt like shit.
why this kind of things happen?
the only funny reason that i can come up with is....
my mother actually wants me to study.
so now it is decided and fated that i should actually concentrate more on my studies.
yah. and it fits perfectly.FATED MAH.
i should IMPRESS MY PTs this year.
felt so kuku, should just kick myself to north pole. =.=

i really have to thank joyce and angela for helping me with make ups and my hair. very nice of angela. she is so nice lah. why is she so nice. yea.SHE IS NICE!:D

i do believe that , nono, i SHOULD BE more decisive.
and be firm.
but it just doesnt seems so -.-
i should concentrate more and i should go and laser my eyes. =.=
WHY AM I BLIND!!
URGHHH!

stupid. i felt very very irritated.
i was angry the whole night on MONDAY.
my heart was beating very fast and i just couldnt help myself and slam the bloody irritating door. haha.
but well, after i had dinner, watch tv and eat the vegetarian taiwan 面线...
i felt better (:

haix. but still felt hopeless.
never a second chance.DUH
if only i did well that night......
whatever.
im always like this.
i have to change this kind of lousy attitude towards ANYTHING.. is bad.

if only i knew all solutions to my problem.
omg, i think i canot express my anger in english that well.LOL.

WELL... sat and sun peforming at east point, near simei MRT.
err... forget every other things and woooots!

congrats to joyce,khim,CHRIS&JANET :D
FINALISTS! JIAYOU!!
win money must treat! heh heh.

LOVE <3
`曾经想过自己有没有用
好像什么都做得不是很好
什么都懂一点就是没能把他做到完美
为什么~
大舞台就想老师所说的
我还不能够很稳的在台上表演
一定会出什么差错
管它是不是忘词,声音没有出来,声音不够亮,怯场.
问题多得数不出
我看只有经验才能够让我走出这个问题
大家都有缺点,我真的不是很好,不要在夸我了
我这个得意忘形的人...笨蛋.!!
twenty-third of june 2008.`
;5/12/2008 05:00:00 pm