sang many songs today. i love how i think i improved. XD
not perfect cuz nobody is. just wanna sing for all i can. while i still can. it's when im most confident with.
cuz i know where i stand. not the best but good enough for me to feel better....
i can be better.
;3/28/2011 05:54:00 PM
but URGH. need to set my diet right!!
eat too late for lunch = not hungry for dinner and hungry during midnight!! T_T i should slp. so the hunger doesnt hunt me! XD
yay. :p narcissistic ♥
;3/27/2011 10:38:00 PM
sweet... haha. miss it.
need a hug from someone.......
guessed i've already moved on. u have your reasons for your choices.......
miss it much, but den i guess i dont need to have it. maybe that's ur point. i dont know.
but it's ok.... that period where it's not ok......is gone. not sure if it will come back again but at least im able to smile now.
;3/27/2011 07:43:00 PM
;3/23/2011 09:41:00 PM
Six feet from the edge - CREED
Please come love I think I'm falling Holding on to all I think is safe It seems I've found the road to no where And i'm trying to escape I yelled back when I heard thunder But I'm down to one last breath And with it let me say Let me say...
CHORUS Hold me now I'm 6 feet from the edge And I'm thinkin Maybe 6 feet ain't so far down
I'm lookin down Now that its over Reflecting on all of my mistakes I thought I found the road to somewhere Somewhere in His grace I cried out Heaven save me But I'm down to one last breath And with it let me say Let me say Let me say..
Hold me now I'm 6 feet from the edge And I'm thinkin Maybe 6 feet ain't so far down (repeat)
I'm so far down Sad eyes follow me Well I still believe there's something there for me So please come stay with me Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me... you an me...you and me
Hold me now I'm 6 feet from the edge And I'm thinkin
Hold me now I'm 6 feet from the edge And I'm thinkin Maybe 6 feet ain't so far down.... (repeat)
Please come now I think I'm falling Holding on to all I think is safe...
;3/23/2011 07:33:00 PM
HAPPPY 20th BIRTHDAYY BROTHERRR!! i love him so much. can always depend on him. he doesnt talk much. but he always silently supports me..... that's what touched me. :)
and that is all i need.. once in awhile a heart to heart talk with him makes me happy. simple things makes me happy. i dun ask for any fanciful things. just a true and pure heart.
BROTHER! have your best bday. as i can see,he's having all his fun with his friends! and i realised he's got so many friends!:D such a lovable boy hahaha! thought he was just a emo guy. :p hahaha. ♥
URGH. miss him so much.
stay healthy stay handsome stay strong!:D
always there for you too!♥
;3/22/2011 02:46:00 PM
woke up this morning. went off in a rush. cuz housemate able to drop me off at bus stop.
ran off in a rush forgot my phone before i got off. but housemate in a rush couldnt expect her to go back round and take my phone. drop off and den in a dilemma whether to walk back and get it.
why cant i just live without the phone. why.... feel really depressed. feel like i dun want to but smth keeps asking me to go back and get it. just in case i might receive a msg or an impt call....
i think too highly of myself. who's gonna call.... who's gonna msg....
if i knew.... i would have just left it there.... :(
was perspiring all the way, running back to get my phone. catching my bus. what a weather today :(
if only i knew..... if only i could just leave it.....
i took some times when i was back in tw.... i learnt. why dragged me back.....
i had company with me to go thru that period. why now again.... why when i dun have my family with me to go thru it with me..... why so selfish? why.....
i keep thinking. feel really sad... :(
but guess i knew it all along.... just pretend and accept it. silly me. willingly......
all i want was ever so simple.... honest heart.... not appreciated...
what did you pray for when you go to the temple? :( haiz...
slpyhead. wanna slp.....
moodless. i will cheer up soon!
housemate not in the mood. i am not too.... everything not in place. but still surviving.... had magnum today. it okay........ :(
;3/21/2011 09:04:00 PM
i actually miss those days when the only thing i do is laugh like hell.
am i aging? dun wan to grow old so fast to start worrying for shit stuffs. :(
you made me fall so hard......
阿姨。。媽媽。。弟弟。。竟然沒人知道。。。。。 `out of control.
;3/20/2011 09:34:00 PM
have been sleeping late these few days. woke up with swollen eyes today... lol. look like WEIRD. :\
so many things on hand to do but just no mood to do.... music accompanying me...
should start changing my lifestyle. waking up early or smth.
have been raining these few days.... it's like even the sky is moody.
feel bad actually. :(
wanted to end with a sigh. but den i realise, i shouldnt....
need something to cheer me up. but when i am all alone.... i wish the smile i purposely put on my face will brighten things up. (:
;3/20/2011 06:03:00 PM
Baby... I cried again..... Heart pain. Can't sleep
I dun understand... Dun understand
I dun expect anything in return just can't control myself tonight... If ever there's nothing else we have to consider.... I want to be with you forever.. I can totally imagined it.
Whatever is bothering you...cheerup then. Duno is not an answer... If u dun know there's no reason why u have to be sad
maybe caring too much will hurt myself, what shld I do...
;3/20/2011 12:02:00 AM
first departure to brisbane. my lovely ladies and friends....
you were frowning.... make me couldnt leave you. but i still have to...
cried on the plane though. so difficult to cry silently. haaha. eee. we were skinnier then compared to earlier. haha. now go back to then... would be the best. if only we can turn back time.... il treasure it.... once more.
;3/14/2011 07:53:00 PM
sometimes i just dont know why do i have to be so brave...
act like im strong. sometimes, it's just not what it seems........
;3/14/2011 05:24:00 PM
maybe he is in china now....
;3/14/2011 05:21:00 PM
and den i realise..... im willing to do anything for you.
thanks for telling me what's in ur mind...
even if you think we were not meant to be or whatever you are not telling me....or you told me everything....
i still care....
as a lover or as a friend........... love. x
;3/07/2011 11:32:00 PM
my regret... not be able to go island with you.....
there should be other chances..... but im not sure now.
;3/05/2011 07:40:00 PM
im just angry..........
i dun hate you.
;3/05/2011 03:54:00 PM
IM JUST A BLOODY KID.
HATE EVERYTHING. HATE YOU I HATE HER I HATEEEEEE!!!
DO NOT IMPOSE ON OTHERS WHAT YOU YOURSELF DO NOT DESIRE.
what century is this already. i have a choice. i chose it myself.
I BLOOOOOODY WANTED TO DO IT FOR YOU. WHY DO YOU WANT TO DO THIS TO ME. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND RIGHT?
DONT GO THE EASY WAY. FREAKING BLOOODY WORK FOR IT TO EARN IT. IRONICLY, YOU ONLY KNOW THIS FOR YOUR WORK. THERE IS FREAKING MORE THAN ONE BLOODY WAY TO UR SUCCESS.
BUT THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN THINK OF IS RUNNING AWAY FROM IT. ASK YOUR MOM.
JUST SCREW EVERYBODY. I GIVE UP
after i calm down.. i choose not to think this way. maybe that's why we are not meant to be. you dont love me enough to want to keep me. it's not about anybody else. you cant do it for me. that's all. maybe that's your feeling. cuz i didnt know anything FUCK. what did i know anyway. IM JUST A BLOODY KID. i have to let it go if that's what you want..... dun wanna fight. dun wanna quarrel. I BLOODY DUN WANT ANYTHING! to get what i want, i need to tolerate PUNCHES in my heart. dun want any of it.
whatever ok. do as you are happy. no stress.
den i realise. i still dun hate you. you have your reasons. i understand. i just got hurt. badly. hospitalised. that's all.....no big deal.
;3/05/2011 01:00:00 PM
很多情侶，都敗給了距離 many couples lost to the distance ...... 1、短信听不到语气，电话看不到表情。 其实我没生气，你当真了；我在笑呢，你看不到吧； 我哭了呢，抱着手机哭倦了睡过又醒了，你在忙吗 ? no tones coming out from messages, cant see no expressions from phone calls. i wasnt angry but you took it seriously; im laughing, but you cant see it; i cried, hugged my phone, fall aslp and woke up, were you busy?
2、共同语言。 如果两个人在一起，两个人的交往圈会融为共同的圈子，话题永远都在更新。 而不在一起的两个人，对彼此身边的环境都会因陌生而逐渐失去兴趣。 慢慢的，能说的话只有空洞的 ‘我想你’ 。 我在努力找话题呢，不要回信说 ‘哦、嗯、好’ 了好吗 ? same language. if two person were together, their cirlces will gradually becomes the same, always changing new topics. if two werent together, soon the environment around will seems strange and soon lose interest. slowly, all we can say is i miss you.. :( im trying to look for a topic here, dont reply "oh, ok, can, yes." okay?
3、沒安全感。 看了10次手机了，你还是没有回信。 你在哪、和谁、在干什么 ? 刚刚拒绝了别人的好意，却禁不住想， 你身边的莺莺燕燕，一如我身边的花花草草吗 ? checked my phone 10 times, there's still no reply. where are you, with who, doing what?
4、远水不救近火。 我这里下雨了，来送伞的是同学的弟弟； 我吃饭忘带钱了，来解围的是朋友的朋友。 原来你不吭声是因为你生病了， 可我再担忧，也不能在你身边端一杯水… it's raining here, a friend's brother sent me an umbrella; i forgot my money during lunch, a friend's friend came to the rescue. so i now i know why you didnt talk, it's because you are sick, but no matter how much im worried about you, i cant even be there to pour you a glass of water..... :(
5、距离产生幻觉。 其实我有些小虚荣，照片有时候修掉了眼袋才给你看； 其实你有些小自负，认定了的事情就以为自己一定对。 为了大老远的爱你，我拒绝接受身边一切说你不好的言论，什么都往好的方向想。 你也是吧 ? 其实我们都不是对方想象的那样好…… to love you from far away, i rejected every bad comment said, look at a brighter side for everything. you too right? actually we are not as good as what each other think?
6、距离产生误会。 我兴冲冲地发短信给你讲刚刚的趣事，你隔了半天说 ‘噢’， 我不知道你在忙的嘛，所以我生闷气了。 你给我发了八条短信两个电话我也没回，愤怒得嗷嗷直叫， 我在做上课呢，手机调振动了的嘛。 其实我们都知道对方不是故意的，但情绪来了，总需要宣泄的。 i excitedly send you a message to tell you about something exciting, you replied, oh after a long while. im not sure what you are busy with, so i sulked. actually we know we didnt meant it that way, but when the emotion comes, we have to vent our anger somewhere.
7、善意的谎言。 我碰巧和相熟的男生去看电影了，想了想，对你说和女生去的。 你独自去了我们约好要一起去的地方，犹豫再三，对我说你哪都没去。 不愿让对方多想，却因为偶尔的疏忽，让对方想得更多。 we do not wan each other to think too much, but because of occasional negligence, we let each other think even more.
8、寂寞。 一个人不寂寞，想念一个人才寂寞。 你说，来，抱抱。于是我把自己裹在被窝里，闭上眼，恩，抱抱。 一个人站在夜空下时，你会抬头看月亮吗 ? it is not lonely being alone, thinking of someone is lonely. you said, come, hug me. so i hide myself in my blanket, close my eyes, yes i hugged you. when you are standing under the dark sky, would you raise your head to look at the moon?
9、信念坍塌。 我看到身边一对一对的，男生帮女生打开水送饭， 在宿舍楼下卿卿我我，周末还能一起爬山， 没忍住就对在地图对角线上的你发牢骚， 其实是想听你的鼓励，想听听你的安慰，你的一个电话就能让我安心。 可也许刚刚好你接到朋友异地恋分手倾诉的电话， 那么容易就把自己带入了戏，无心的抱怨雪上加霜。 有时候折腾一下，只为了证明自己的重要性。 哪知脆弱基础上的高楼只须多压上一根头发的重量，也许就崩溃了。 i watched every couple around me, girls get meal delivery from the guys. affectionate under school hostels, hiking on weekends, and you start to grumble when you cant control yourself, all i want was your encouragement, your console, one phone call of yourswould make me feel safe. but maybe just at that same moment, you received a friend's overseas call complaining about his broke up. easily brought your emotion into drama, a heartless complaint make it worst. sometimes just a little toss, just to prove your importance. but nobody knows that maybe just one more strand of hair, the high rise building on this weak foundation, would just collapse.... :(
10、你的真心。 人心隔肚皮，更何况我们还隔着千山万水。 男生永远无法理解女生为什么需要浓浓的表达爱意， 正如我永远不知道你为何可以那样轻轻的表明心意。 our heart is just separated by our belly. moreover we are separated thousands of miles away. guys would never understand why girls need deep affections. likewise, girls will never know why guys can lightly declare their mind....
didnt know it would hurt so much........
;3/05/2011 10:54:00 AM
1 經常親吻她，趁她不註意 often kiss her when she's not paying attention. 2 過馬路時牽她的手。即使吵架。♥ still hold her hands when crossing the road. even though you had a fight with her. 3 一定要有屬於你們自己的房子，即使不大。 you must have your own house, even if it is small. 4 一起聽她喜歡的歌和她愛看的電影，陪她感動。♥ listen to her favourite song, watch her favourite movie... with her. 5 讓她躺在你的腿上，可以撫摸她的頭發。♥ let her lie of your tight, so you can touch her hair. 6 她洗澡的時候唱歌給她聽，讓她不覺得悶。 sing a song for her when she is showering, so she doesnt get bored. 7 哄她吃她不愛吃但有營養的食物。 coax her to eat nutritious food that she doesnt like 8 生活中一定要有一套情侶裝 不管衣服 鞋子 手機吊繩 還是首飾。 there must be at least a set of couples tee, shoes, handphone accessories or other accessories. 9 當她很累時給她捏捏肩，捏捏腳，然後撓她腳心逗她開心。♥ massage her shoulders massage her legs when she is tired.... tickle her feet to make her happy. 10 偷偷錄下她走來走去和睡覺的樣子。不管她耍賴還是威脅就是不刪。♥ secretly video the way she sleeps, the ways she walks. never delete them even though she threatens you. 11 沒有理由的抱抱她。♥ hug her for no reasons at all.... 12 她寫的東西我一定用心的看，讀懂內心的那個她。 feel what she writes. read with your heart to understand the person inside her.... 13 周末為她做她喜歡吃的東西，然後散步。 make her favourite food during weekends and then take a stroll... 14 在大天廣眾之下背她或停下來擁抱她。 piggyback her or stopped to hug her in public. 15 在街上走的時候不會離她超過1米遠的距離 即使你們吵架了。♥ even though you had a fight with her, you will never be more than a metre away from her... 16 進餐廳的門或出圖書館的時候一定為她拉門讓她先走。 open the door for her....into restaurants or out of a library. 17 陪她買菜殺價，她做飯你做湯。 go to the market with her, she cook dinner and you cook soup. 18 趁她半睡半醒間為她蓋被子，醒來先看看熟睡的她，然後親一下她的額頭。♥ cover her with the blanket when she is half asleep, first thing you do when you wake up, look at her, sleeping soundly.... then give her a kiss on her forehead. 19 在她特殊時期為她端上熱的紅糖水，然後若無其事的看電視。 during her special period, bring her a cup of warm tea, then watch tv like it's nothing... 20 偶爾早上打電話給她，聽她傭懶的聲音然後問她想吃什麼給她帶回去。 occasionally call her in the morning, listen to her lazy voice and ask her what she wants to have for breakfast and bring it to her. 21 給她取可愛的外號，只有你能叫。♥ give her a cute nickname, only you can call her that. 22 手機和電腦的背景一定是她的照片或你們的合影。♥ the background picture of your phone and computer must be her picture or the picture of the both of you. 23 手機上的昵稱一定是和別人不一樣的，當你打給她時，她的姐妹看到會很羨慕。 the name on your phone must be different from the rest. her sisters will be jealous when you call her. 24 在家幫她梳個幼稚的發型，然後叫她女兒。 comb her a kiddish hairstyle at home and call her your daughter. 25 如果出差一定帶東西給她，雖然不貴，但證明你時刻都在想著她。 if you are out for business, bring her something, not expensive, but proves that you thinking of her every minute. 26 她上車，一定先為她拉門手要擋著車門框 別讓她碰到頭 讓她坐進去，再為自己拉。 open the car door for her, put your hand above so as to not let her knock her head, then open for yourself. 27 當她想要松開的時候一定再堅持抱她一會。♥ when she want to release, insist of hugging her awhile more longer...... 28 永遠不會丟下她一個人，就算你無理取鬧也一定要讓她安全。♥ never leave her alone even if you are angry. you must be safe. 29 你心情不好的時候能同她說說，如果你不想說，就讓你抱一下。♥ you can talk to her when you are feeling bad, if you dont feel like saying, let her hug you.. 30 剛上的飯菜一定裝作搶著吃的樣子，多為她夾些。 when the food is served, act like you want to snatch all the food to eat, give her more... 31 當她無助時你能陪她爬爬山，看看夕陽。 when she feels restless, climb mountain with her, watch the sunrise sun set with her. 32 吵架後絕對不冷戰，哄她之後告訴她你是為她好。 never have cold wars after a fight.... tell her you do it all for her..... 33 睡覺的時候喜歡她抱著你，但當她背過身去一定也轉身然後再抱她。♥ like it when she hugs you to sleep. but when she turn to the other side, you turn too and hug her... 34 在她做家務的時候為她拍照，告訴她穿圍裙的樣子也一樣很美。 take photos of her when doing chores at home, tell her she is still as beautiful with the apron on. 35 如果她生病了一定細心照顧她，因為這時候她最脆弱，為她熬大大大補湯。 take really good care of her when she is sick, because that is when she is the weakest, make a big big big tonic soup just for her. 36 錢包裏一定有她的照片。♥ you must have her picture in your wallet. 37 下班回來一定會大聲的說：老婆，我回來了。 after work, shout: honey, im home. 38 半夜故意把被子往自己這邊拉，讓她離自己近些。 purposely pull the blanket nearer to yourself, so she comes closer to you. 39 聽她囑咐我按時吃飯，多喝水多吃水果，說她羅嗦然後吻她。 listen to her commands eat on time, drink more water, eat more fruits, say she is naggy and kiss her. 40 打雷的時候把她攬到懷裏睡，然後說：我怕怕。♥ hug her close to your chest when there is thunder and say: im scared. 41 幫她擦她吃東西留在嘴邊的奶油的和果醬。♥ wipe the butter and jam at the corner of her lips after she eat. 42 留一點點的胡渣在親她的時候扎扎她。 leave some mustache, prick her when you kiss her. 43 在她的朋友面前細心的照顧她，讓他們知道她的選擇是對的。 take good care of her in front of her friends. let them know her choice is right. 44 在你的朋友面前細心的照顧她，不讓她覺得你冷落了她。 take good care of her in front of your friends, dun let her feel that you left her out. 45 有生之年陪她去趟她喜歡的城市或國家。 once in a lifetime, bring her to her favourite city or country. 46 當她發呆，做飯，拖地或趴在陽臺的時候，你會在身後攬住她。 when she is day dreaming, making dinner, mopping the floor or lying at the balcony, you will hug her from behind. 47 不許她說對不起。告訴她這是聖旨。但可以用老公真好這四個字來代替。 dun allow her to say sorry. tell her it is an order. but she can use my hubby is so good to replace it. 48 即使是冬天，她說口渴你也會一溜煙下床幫她倒水，但回來她必須幫你暖身子。 even if it is during winter, you will get out of bed and pour her a cup of warm water when she say she is thirsty, but when you come back she has to warm your body. 49 當她錢包裏錢不多的時候，你會拿錢給她說：幫我買雙襪子，不用找了。 when she doesnt have much money left in her purse, you will give her money and say: help me buy a pair of socks, keep the change. 50 讓她愛上你愛的遊戲，讓她愛上你愛的球隊。♥ let her fall in love with your game and your favourite team. 51 一起養隻寵物。 get a pet together. 52 在她能看到的地方寫篇文章。 write her something where she can see. 53 帶她去遊樂園，電影院，圖書館，博物館，漫畫展和小酒吧。 bring her to the theme park, the theatre, the library, museum and a bar. 54 有一首關於我們故事的歌。每次去KTV都要唱。♥ have a song about the story of both of you. sing it everytime you go to the KTV. 55 當她要和你商量事情或說不開心的事的時候，一定放下手中的東西認真聽。 when she needs to discuss something or say something unhappy, put everything aside and listen carefully. 56 如果有天她要離開你，你會挽留，也會放她走。告訴她受委屈的時候來找你。 if one day, she wants to leave you. you will ask her to stay, you will also let her go. tell her she can look for you if she feel wronged. 57 抱著一顆感激的心和她相處，當你想發脾氣的時候，你要學會忍耐。 always be thankful to be with her, when you feel like throwing a tantrum, you will learn patience.... 58 下雨的時候打一把傘，邁一樣的步伐踩水花不讓天氣影響她的心情。 bring an umbrella during a rainy day. walk with her and not letting the weather affect her mood. 59 去餐廳點她喜歡的菜，如果實在點不出就點沒吃過的，一起喊好吃或難吃。 order her favourite food in the restaurant, if you really dont know, order something new, together comment if it's good or bad. 60 在你朋友和父母面前會誇贊她。不管她是否在場。 doesnt matter if she is there or not, praise her in front of your friends and parents. 61 當她不理你時，就模仿她的動作、她的聲音、她的表情、她撒嬌時說的話。♥ when she ignores you, imitate her actions, her voice, her looks, the way she talks when she is flighty. 62 送她回家一定把她送到門口，告訴她明天會來接她。 send her to her door if you send her home, and tell her you will come fetch her tomorrow. 63 絕不在她面前盯著別的女人看，看A片絕不被她逮到。 never stare at other women in front of her, never get caught watching porn movies. 64 總能隨時變出一塊她喜歡吃的糖。 always able to pull out her favourite candy. 65 如果你有一天出了意外，希望她能找個人替你愛她照顧她。 if one day you had an accident, hope she can be able to find someone to replace you, to love her and take care of her. 66 在加一條就是無論是心情不好還是什麼，就算是吵架也要讓老婆。老婆就只有一個，她是你最親的家人。 one last one. whether you are in a bad mood or whatever, even you had a fight, give in to your wife because you only have one wife, and she is your closest dearest family.
In fact,true love isthe joy oftwo peoplespending it quietly. When we understand, wehavealready lost what we could have. Reality islike this,no one willwait for youin place,if you haveleft, you do notlook back. There will be no onewaiting for you in the same place, sonevergive upeasily..........
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