When you cry,you feel the squeeze in ur chest,you feel your heartaching.....
like when you feel the squeeze in ur nose when you are about to cry.....

it comes all the way from your stomach to your throat when you try not to make a sound.....

when it all comes back to you....
just cant control it....

cant slp you cant eat you just go blank.....

the pain suffocates you....
feel like crying it out loud so that it doesnt hurt you that much...

just able to see how much you want to say it out but you just cant do it....
what's stopping you...
is stopping me too...
;2/27/2011 10:58:00 am

somebody's gonna love me again......
appreciates me more...


agree, dun agree.

haa.

badminton's a good sports.
hope it would get me somewhere.
need to sweat everything off me.......

saw some rank A players.
powerful.
saw handsome guys too. haha.

ciaoz.
;2/21/2011 09:58:00 pm

why.

why that kiss on my forehead.

why that warm hand that didnt wanna let go......



why is there a silly girl who cried after that irresponsible kid just leave like that......


it will go away right?
you wanted it that way right?

i only have my questions with me.
no answers......

im sure there;s always smth else left untold.
who's the liar.
who's the one who is not honest...............?
;2/21/2011 09:45:00 pm

we were talking about chris.
why did his gf wanna hold his little hands first and tell him that they are going too fast and break up.
why hurt him.

then fiona said.
talk to the gf...
tell her: dun hold my little hands first and still say we are going too fast cuz it will make me confuse.

haha.
it is true.

she direct the play and fire her actor.


VDAY 14022011
had a great day at uss.
the roller coaster was crazy.
we took 2 times each for 3 different roller coasters.
true.
if there isnt the roller coaster.
you cant do anything there except taking pictures. haha.
for 66$
lucky we had the 30% discount from jas and her tour guide. HAHA
thank you jiaseemeee.

greatt vday with friends!:)
although there is no flowers. haha.

some things.... just leave it.
i decide to leave.
drop this and rmb others. happier ones.....
it will not be exposed.

me know you know he know she know....

be brave boy.
take you no where to only take things the easy way out.
some times you will be surprised.
open your eyes, see true friends not the one who wants to take you down slowly.
be a good person. dun turn bad.
ur heart matters more.....
i meant it deep down my heart as always....

;2/15/2011 05:05:00 pm

im disappointed.

it is a shouldnt have........if you know what you had...

haiz.
helpless and speechless.
it is my fault i know........

but damn i didnt know...............
haiz.

just hope it isnt from you! :(
hope it's not you.
it's not like you.
haiz.
;2/15/2011 01:59:00 am

:)

some pictures to share.
when i was in taiwan.


always being reminded.

love.
;2/13/2011 11:51:00 am

THAT GIRL



Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah


nice song.

only if it's you who tell me....
love.
;2/13/2011 12:26:00 am

got that cut not long ago.
omg. was DAMN pain.
it took awhile to go off.

feel the pain coming back once in awhile while healing....

you know when the cut starts to heal, halfway. itchy hands will scratch them.
then they start to tear.

start to feel the pain coming back.........

just need some time to wait for it to heal.
hope it doesnt leave a scar.
cuz im so going to put some mask on it.
haha.


if you know what i mean.
;2/12/2011 02:44:00 am

when days past...
you realise.
it is not that important alrdy, what you have been lingering on for so long which others didnt care.

but once in awhile you are reminded by your heart that you once had a great time.
still longing pending waiting.
but you dont have to show it.
like what i have been doing for the past 20 years.

sometimes even when you feel what your heart is telling you something make a move etc, you can only wait.

not sure if im right or wrong.
just dun wan to get myself hurt.

still feel it sometimes......
loves.
;2/11/2011 02:41:00 pm