feel really warm when someone is able to talk so softly, talks into your heart...

like he sees through you....
that is the part where im wounded. that part that was never healed.
nobody can do that. never.
nobody can make me feel that way when they talk to me...
guess he really cares, truly.....
or he is just able to see it.
but still, thank you for that. (:

had a good chat too that night.
it's a long time since i got so emotional.
it's crazy. but the feeling just couldnt stop.
just keeps coming....
lucky it ended.
im glad i have that kind of friend here. (misses FTTL)


dont seems to be panicing, stressed or whatever when im outside, but the truth is....
i do. very much.
we dont wanna face what we are afraid the most.
and that is basically what im learning, to not be that way.
need time, strength and wisdom.
hang in there, stay positive all the time.

make good use of the time...
please.
not much time left.

oh and, somethings happening....MAYBE im thinking too much. ><
im gonna just look beyond that too. (:

love.

;5/22/2011 09:06:00 am

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

even though it's mother's day, i just dont seems to be able to cheer up.
wanna go back home....
miss my bed.
miss my sofa.
miss those quarreling.
miss those heart to heart chattings.
miss my small sofa.
miss my mom's room.
miss my toilet.
miss aunty belen
miss home cooked food.
miss my brother.
miss my mom.....
miss............. :(

i feel like all i have is my computer now...
all i see is the curtains, the dirty clothes i have to wash, and cockroaches. :(
nobody to disturb.
all alone back at home now.....
so lonely....

wanna go back home......

always at certain point of time, i get moody.
i dont know......

maybe it's becuz im sick now.
when i get better,things will get better........ i hope.

i need to sing. :(


love.
`it's today again...we were planning...we had plans.`
;5/08/2011 08:07:00 pm

the truth always hurts.
but i rather be told earlier than to only realise it later on....
did you laughed at me looking silly, didnt know what's going on? :(
played by you.... still smile, and laughed like you love me....
why.....
what were you thinking when you knew it all along and didnt want to tell me....
i kept asking i kept asking....

and now i realised, i actually knew it all along. :(
but i didnt admit to my heart.
becuz i hope i wish i believe......

so i blocked away those imperfects.
and i choose to forgive to oversee to look beyond.

no wonder they say it takes two hands to clap.
one hand doesnt work.

that distance you wanna keep from me.
i should have realised.
i blamed it on myself, blamed it on you later on becuz i didnt realise....

how silly i was.....

i dun blame you, becuz i neglect it myself, that's why i got hurt....
i rather believe those lies, and continue believing and be happy.
i should have appreciate more when i have the chance.......

im fine, im just saying....

love.
;5/05/2011 06:08:00 pm

just sometimes....

you wish you could have another chance, do it all over again~
and do it a different way this time.



love.
;5/03/2011 09:51:00 am