i once told a friend i think im lousy at everything.
like really lousy kind.

then he say he have simple solution;
to think otherwise.

eg. if you are not good at this, try be good at something else you think you are better at...
not good with/because...
family; communicate more
friends; speak up.
rebellious; tone down.... etc.

the more you want to improve, the more it might get worst, so why not work it to your own advantage?
am i raising my standards too high, that it becomes invisible pressures and stress?(i think i do have the invisible pressure and stress.)
if i want to improve, make sure i improve and not like empty promises, den defeats all purpose.
so always tell yourself, sooner or later you will succeed, better late den never?
it's like everything is up to you.
what you do is going to be what you gonna get.

so if something is going really wrong.
stop it and try another way?

playful isnt irresponsible, it's your nature and it's just not gone yet.
of cox we wanna think of our future, but...
he say, dont think so far...
first, look at the road in front of you.
you can see if the door to success is near or far to you.
but only when you walk the path in front of you, you will then find out.
dont start thinking whether it's far, spend the time to walk first.
maybe on the way, you will find other shortcuts to lead you, and you wont even need to go through that door to get to where you wanna go.

seriously,i sit down... and think.

it's easier said than done.
can i only think about myself.
well ofcox,it's my life.
but what about those who actually have high hopes on me?
sounds like im living for others now.
now i dont even know how this thing works?

den he say, i have to adopt.
as long as i think it's right, i go do it.
fail, then i get up again and try; it's never to late to try again.

if you cant accept yourself, why be a human being?
follow fixed expectations and rules?
only robots and machines do that.
why not start making a decision without anybody's advice?

all these need courage. seriously.
not that i dont know any of these meanings, but it's not as easy as we think it is....

it's like a 21st century..... life.

LOVE <3
`no time to even think now do i?
sometimes, i cant even have a proper night, sleeping.`
;1/28/2009 12:19:00 am