is it me or what.
i should really appreciate more.

maybe it's because i waste electricity and i do alot of bad things so things dont just come smoothly for me. i should really do something about this.

but what can i do.

it's my family, they did everything that they could for me, but i just take it like it's all suppose to be. to take it for granted?
i have to work harder.
there's only one more chance, i believe.
i have to really mean what i say.

always reflecting on myself. and i know what is wrong and i know.
but i just dont seem to change.

i really have to start waking up by 9am everyday from now onwards.
it's really by starting with little things.
but i ignored them for a very long time already.
and i have decided to continue my piano.

and university is decided, UQ.
dont wanna wait, just go with it.
this is already a very good opportunity for me to be able to get in any uni.

i really need to reflect on what im doing and what is the right thing to do.
for now, piano.
i need to finish it. im not going to quit in everything.
this is really a very bad habit.
everything that i do now, is really reflecting what i will be in future.
i dont want to be useless and all.

i need to change some of my everyday lifestyle.
it's like a new beginning.
nobody in my fam wants me bad.
i need to do it whether im alone or what i need to know my limits and control myself.

and i mean it.
i really hope i do it.
wish me good health.

LOVE <3
;7/03/2009 04:21:00 pm